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Wednesday, December 27, 2006


i felt
awful.
helpless.
burdened.
and all the other awful feelings
as time ticked away.

submission of report is just two days away and i am still stuck with those figures and tables. hundreds of them. edit and edit. never seem to get them right. broke down twice and cried. felt even worse when wad you decided have an effect on me. you dunno that. wad you know was that you need to break away, need someone to talk to, but did you know that i need mine too? and you know that when you wish for something, you wish i will comply too, but do you know how i actually feel? do you know wad i actually want to do? i'm not as strong as i seemed to be. i will my ups and downs too, need a word of concern when things don't go well too.. do you know?

sometimes, u r someone great. but sometimes, your feelings burdened me, and i just feel like running away. but it's not your fault. we are made up of different atoms and molecules in the first place. i know how hard it is for 2 person to meet in this world to become family or friends. that's why i don't wish to lose this bond, and i don't want to. i swear. but wishing is of no use without actions. so please, don't make my heart grow with the feeling of dislike. don't force me to do things that i don't like. and don't burden me with your feelings.

i am tired.
really tired.
mentally tired.
emotionally tired.
break away........

~ { 22:41 }
reflections of you and me;