the horoscope predictions for this week should have included this:

this week will be a week of ups and downs, with many things ought to be said,
but forced to be left untold.

yupps, that's wad i'm feeling right now, with tons of thoughts running through my mind. not forgeting to mention that amount of assignments and tests, dued 2 weeks from now, that's crashing me top down, and that awful gum-ache due to my wisdom tooth.

dammit, can just gimme a break or not?

i cant possibly tell H to shuddup and stop giving that damn face and that damn attitude
i cant possibly tell Q that Q's questions are stressing me totally out.
i cant possibly tell S that not everything that O says can be trusted, and that Q tends to over exaggerate stuffs.
i cant possibly tell C that i am really tied "super" down with the stuffs i have to do, and i cant help C with C's stuffs.. cos C has always been helping me and i have already rejected C a few times.
and i cant possibly tell T, W, Z about why i reacted that way, since things happened donkeys years back.

yes, i tend to bottle things up.. cos, how does it help if i voice it out? would u listen? and how would u think of me if i were to say it out like some ill-mannered person? u cant possibly expect me to say it out nicely when i am in such a position, right?

so please. know me better before u come questioning me about this and that..
when i dun say it, doesnt mean i'm ok with it or that i'm in the wrong..
it's just that i dunno how to put it across to u, so that we will get least affected by it.

p/s: sorry for the unpleasant words. i just need to vent my anger.


don't just listen to what i said,
listen to what i did not.