Everytime i wanna pen down all these long thoughts that i have, which could easily surpass my 2000 words essay.. i was held back.. held back by the comments and thoughts that others might have after reading it. noooo, by that, i do not mean that i have a huge reader base.. but.. sometimes, its not the number of the readers you have that counts, rather, it's their thoughts which matters. you know, something like.. its nt the quantity, but the quality that counts. but ya la.. in this case, got nothing about quality.. but something along that line..

Okay, so.. after thinking for so many weeks, yupps, i finally felt that i should pen it down.. since this has been sort of bugging me for the past few weeks. and yes, i do know the consequences for penning my little thoughts down, even though i m penning it on my own blog.. but a blog isnt like a diary.. it's open. anybody can view it. anyone can comment on it. it's not personal. not private. and, unlike a diary, u have to deal with the effects of your entries, whether issit good or bad. well, okays, more of the bad effects actually. so someone that i know might probably view this entry, and goes thinking that what i said was referring to him/her, gets angry abt it, and goes round telling others. yes, i totally can imagine that, and that's why i say i do know the consequences for penning this down.. but.. before i continue, maybe what i gotta say is: before you get all sensitive thinking if im talking about you.. well, NOT! it's just some personal thoughts that i've gotten from those, lets call that experiences. and seriously, it doesnt have to be whoever i'm talking about, cos this is probably the kind of people that everyone will meet someday, and its only whether you can accept it or not, that results in your reactions.

many times, people will think carefully of what they can say and do before - saying and doing.. so maybe after a long long time.. everyone, ok almost everyone, got used to that and only selectively say and do stuff that are politically correct.. so MAYBE.. when someone decides to just be frank and direct.. we cant take it. well, that's one. or maybe.. we cant take it simply cos we are no longer that young and have seen lots of these kindda stuffs previously.. and yes, that's sad. cos that means 1. we are getting old, 2. these stuffs will keep bugging you cos the older you get, the more of these stuffs will make you angry, fed up and pissed off. yups, it sucks.

ok, shall stop for now.. it's already 1.30am. so yupps, too much thoughts and the late time makes me typing bits and pieces here and there, which makes it kindda messy.

but perhaps, 1 last thing.. and that is:
i'm tired, and getting sick of this. perhaps, you felt the same way about me too.